Hatsu

This is so increadably annoying, In 2 months and 1 month of it being on the antibiotics I've went from 175 down to 158 WOW. I feel like crap, my stamina sucks, energy levels are so bad, expect I can still move almost the same amount of weight. Intresting, but now that I hopped off the antibiotics for one day and I feel sick. Stuff needs to get done, I'm gonna hit 165 next week, getting back into workout mode, I hate looking thin, and I lost alot of size in my legs. My goal is to be 180 at the end of the year. It looked like I was, but now that I've lost so much weight it'll be a challenge to do so. But we'll see, muscule has memory and it's not that hard putting back lost weight. I at least want to be back at the 170s I felt good and strong at that level. Now I just feel like crap. I'll see tmrw if I feel any good to start beasting it.

lol I take these things with a grain of salt sometimes, but man when I hear artists which shoot up to the top of the chart out of no where, I must listen to the song in reverse and listing to this one is just freaky
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MiAQwKG_g4I

the chorus is sounds something like.

Chorus starts at 0:38
See... I'll make you... I'll do it, I'll do it...

I can't make sense out of the other things.

my offer of the week.

http://seattle.craigslist.org/tac/pho/828002544.html

Let me know.

I'm finally learning how to play guitar now to complete most of my music abilities. It shouldn't be that difficult for me to be good since it seems pretty easy so far. But I want to learn how to play slap guitar like Miyavi does on some of his stuff.

Go to California.
My boss isn't at work this week so I can't ask for vacation until MondayTuesday!, but I gotta leave on the 2nd week of Sept. Maybe I'll quit if he won't let me take time off, I seriously can't stand being there anymore.

Plus I can't stand being here and doing the same thing for so long. It's soo frustrating and un-inspirational, I need to get away and experience something fresh.

skip this if you don't want to know this about me.

Here's something thats going on with me right now. I don't know what to do right now, I'm 21yr old now. I should be more active and enjoying the college life style and then getting laid all the time. But really, I don't want that, because I don't want to participate in sexual immorality and doing somethings which I don't want to do even though its fun which most people do. It's difficult for me right now, because I can just add like 100 girls on myspace everyday or go to the bar/clubs/parties get the girl drunk and eventually score a few times then hit things off from there. Sure, that works, however, I don't want to get older and have nothing to look forward too because absolute repetitiveness and staying in the comfort zone is the ultimate failure in life because it leads to nothing new. Now thats where I get stuck sometimes, although I've been slowly changing and preparing for a new future for me because I don't want to be left behind when that moment comes around. But the point of this is that this all leads back to morals which is why I'm thinking about this, I don't like the sexual immorality thats around because I see it happen all the time with all these first night stands/meetings. But I guess thats how it goes when you get older around here. But where's that class you should be holding on too? I've only meet 1 girl who has real class and she told guys "I'm sorry I'm not any fun" when they tried to get in her pants during the first date. Am I naive? Probably, but I'd rather hold on to my standards & morals than drop it all just for a "good time".

So we went haunted house hunting last night, we went cleared out 2 places out of 3 we went to.

~near the light house built in like 1950's with everything still inside.
Got into the kitchen and my friend smelled something like dead bodies.

We're going back there again this weekend and take pictures and video inside at night.

~middle of a forest
Abandoned house but still exciting. I got a couple of orbs on camera.

Looks like the "ORLY OwL" in the house


But what is that freaky Yoda face at the top center.

~5 mile drive at midnight.
Cops came when we parked and waited for us plus we didn't know where to walk too once we got down to the field.

something I just thought of.

I wonder, we all want something, whether it be small or big, or whatever. We all want something that is deep to us. What if we did receive what we want, are you/me ready to receive it and know how to probably make use of it and then what to do afterwards. Will we be really thankful of it?

I know I want something, something that would be extremely dear to me in my heart and I would do everything I could to make that person happy. But because I don't have that am I holding myself back from enjoying and living a fulfilled life that I know I deserve. I think that because I realized something that I only want that 1 person and I don't want to give that to anyone else.

But then, that's one of the things that propels me to move on into the future in hope and belief that it will happen. But then what? I feel I need to also be more focus in the today as well and not look into the future because it's full of uncertainty and fear. This has always been difficult for me, but I want this to happen now and not tomorrow.

DS LITE Enamel Navy with 7 Games
$180bid | $225buy

ECHO Indigo I/O
$50bid | $80buy SOLD


I'm disappointed I have to sell these items as I personally don't want to. However due to my bad financial miscalculations and my new laptop not supporting the Indigo I/O card. I have to do something in order to get a new soundcard for my new laptop. Personally, I find gaming more enjoyable on the PC and consoles anyways so it's time to move on.

Now I gotta need to sell 2 of my computers.
I spent a while figuring this out and selling things to achieve this, even though I borrowed quite a bit of money to do this, everything should work out when I sell the 2 PC's. I'm hoping for the best and looking towards the future on this, I'm even afraid financially because of the money I owe now, however a voice inside me said it's worth it in the end. So I'm taking the risk and trusting in investing in expensive things which would allow me to bring in better things in the end. I have been given a gift and I need to express it in full instead of burying and hiding it. Through this I should be able to bring in other things through time and adventure into other paths. Then given enough time I should be able to pay back what I owe. So hopefully this will work out.

Cpu - AMD 3200+
Mem - 1GB DDR
Soundcard - Creative Audigy 2 OEM
HD - 60GB+100GB 5400rpm?
OS - XP Pro
Video Card - 9200 SE Radeon ATI
Ethernet - 10/100/1000mbit

17" Monitor I believe I have somewhere as well

The only thing you have to supply is a keyboard and mouse.

All of this for $150

So if you want a new computer, you should buy mine.

I'm also selling my laptop, Inspiron 6000 to a friend for $450. 1.6 Pentium M, 60GB hardrive? 300x Mobility Radeon ATI, 1GB Ram. So if hopefully that goes through, but if it doesn't you can leave me a comment if you want dibs next.

So that'll leave me with my current desktop and a new laptop I'm going to buy. I'm going to set up my kvr switch to use my deskop and laptop, then connect my laptop to my monitor so it's duel screens. Plus less cables I have worry about. So hopefully it'll work out later cause there's going to be alot of moving stuff around, this would make my studio mobile so I could just pack it all up in about 5-10mins if I have to bring everything somewhere to play.

http://cgi.ebay.com/ws/eBayISAPI.dll?ViewItem&item=290113663718

Last item of mine up for sale.
Dell Axim x51v, they don't make them anymore.

http://cgi.ebay.com/ws/eBayISAPI.dll?ViewItem&item=290112781817
Plus the PSP has Legend of Mana, FF7&8 on it.
Ebay is retarded though, I can't list that I'm selling a disc to play import games.

Anyways, buy it.

Sold, TWICE. :I

Kuchini - 4553 6505 1996

Thats my friends code for Pearl, whats yours?

Thats right, time to catch them all, again.

( hatsu )

http://cgi.ebay.com/ws/eBayISAPI.dll?ViewItem&item=290106978821
3rd Mix

http://cgi.ebay.com/ws/eBayISAPI.dll?ViewItem&item=290106985558
ToD 2

Virus TI Just go to the products and look at it

It costs about $2200-$2700 Depending where. Yea thats alot of money, I'm looking to get it at the end of the year sometime around Christmas as a present where I'll be able to pay with cash.

I think it'll be great once I can get that though, using 2 computers gets frustrating cause I max out the CPU with how much I beef up everything with effects and trying to work at 32bit/96khz now instead of 16bit/44khz (which is CD quality) completely brings the PC to it's knees. But getting this would be nice, I could use it without a computer because it's an analog synthesizer or use it with my computer and use like 0-1% of my CPU.

If you want to hear some good presets to understand how it sounds, go to this page and it's the top 3 on the list.
http://www.vengeance-sound.de/eng/indexes/indexSounds.html
or go to the top link and find some demo songs.

If anyone here wants to buy my DS with 14Games bid/buy from my ebay action
http://cgi.ebay.com/ws/eBayISAPI.dll?ViewItem&item=290102444733

Yea! Someone just bought it after like 2hours of it being posted. hmm I gotta find a box to ship it in tmrw.

alright it's going to be hard figuring out how to reach pro level quality.

So far I bought a weird type of notebook so I can dissect alot of tracks and figure out how they're constructed. It's weird when you listen, most good songs just sound amazing and it's hard to figure out how they work out. Anyways, hopefully I'll know how to write tracks with a very good structure after this instead of second guessing and going with what sounds good.